So on Halloween I went to a party dressed as Cruella de Vil. I am not so sure that I loved my outfit or my overall costume persona, but I committed to it with hair paint, spray and glitter (because all costumes need a little bit of glitter). The party was equipped with a fortune teller.
Before we started, while she shuffled the deck and made small talk and maybe this was the beginning of the end, but I wanted to know -- 'So are you a for real, see visions sort of fortune teller or a BS fortune teller who works parties.' At the time, it seemed like a logical question; she said she was the real deal. Has been having visions since she was a young girl and her grandmother (who passed away when she was 21, totally irrelevant but part of the bio) also had 'the gift - a blessing and a curse'
She hands me the deck of cards and says shuffle til you feel good about the deck and 'think about what you want to get out of this. Think about what you need to know and want to explore.' I say do I think about one thing or several things? She says, we have only a brief amount of time so I should stick to just one, but in life sometimes all things are combined, so that should make me feel a little better.
Anyway, so I think and shuffle. Pull 10 cards. And that's when the spiral started. Rats on major cards, a jack of hearts (which is evidently sucky in comparison to the queen of hearts), a seven of spades, a nine of clubs, a 3 of clubs, a jack of diamonds (I havent a clue what that any of those mean) Anyway, basically she starts in and asks if I have a lot on my mind - Sure I do... I am at a crossroads career/job wise (let's just call it a crossroads), I have goals that I made for 09, and truth is they may not get done in the next 60 days. I am sitting alone in a pasture as far as romantic relationships go and I would like to ideally be married before 40. And I worry. About ridiculous things, vital things, silly things, serious things. Granted I didn't tell her all this, I am telling you (all 15 of you). I simply answered 'sure'
She lays into me about how I worry so much about life and love and work and things that are in my control and things that are out of my control and I really need to relax. And how I am lucky and I have the world at my fingertips and if I could just give up the worry the rest would fall into my lap. But I have to stop worrying and relax.
Seriously?? It was a bit of a Halloween beating and just when you think it couldn't get any worse after her mini lecture on not worrying, she hands me a second deck of cards and says to pull three. The first was a single waterfall (joy was the word on the bottom of the image), the last was a garden of flowers with the word grandmother (this is the truth) and the middle card was of several waterfalls and like 9 buckets filled with water and in the center, a lone girl with long black hair and the word passion. A girl alone. I thought Cruella was going to lose it. And then Cruella does get a little weepy. Seriously, it's a party and this is a fortune teller.
And then fortune teller, Meri, says - 'you are filled with joy, you are passionate and you are nurturing' -- and she looks up at me and smiles, 'that is what the grandmother card means.' I was waiting for her to tell me I needed to get a bigger place to live and buy a handful of cats. And then she hits me. '... But you are lonely and you are fighting through so much. You need to really stop and focus on what makes you happy and what you hope for yourself and what you want from your everyday. [*really, no shit, Sherlock] And let go of the worry or you will be alone for a long while. And neither of us want that for you...'
I had tears rolling down my face. I thought that party fortune tellers were supposed be uplifting and fun and make you feel good about yourself. Oy vey. Reason to worry, indeed. But at least she pointed me in the right direction or at least steered away from the direction I was heading...